Two months already, but I feel like I lost my son just yesterday.
Why is nobody talking about him? I want to talk about him, every day.
I want to see comments on his online obituary, but there are no new ones.
I reread the sympathy cards,
and I tell complete strangers that I lost my son recently.
I'm supposed to be depressed. According to the Stages of Grief ......
I may be..., just a little.
I comfort myself with songs, like this one below.
Music is so powerful. I think Gary would like this song.
We talked about music all the time. He was going to teach me to play guitar.
We battled over the heavy metal that he liked in his youth.
I thought it was really bad, rebellious, angry music. I tried to guide him,
steer him away from things that I felt weren't good for him.
In the end, I don't know if I was right or not, but I just did what I believed
was best, like a mother should.
But he did broaden his musical taste as he grew older. I broadened mine too.
We liked a lot of the same rock artists, and he liked classical and hymns too.
Sometimes he would sing to me over the phone, some lyrics he had written
or a song that was meaningful to him.
"Music is love that heals", I once heard at a Guided Imagery Through Music Seminar.
I told Gary that there are certain kinds of music that can improve your mood and calm you.
I was introduced to Pachelbel, and using it during meditation., What peace it brings!
And Vivaldi-Four Seasons also impressed me, great for background while studying.
I told my son, there is some music that can disturb you, and you should make
good choices and fill your head and mind with good sounds.
My mother and I still sing "Does Jesus Care", each night over the phone,
and I've come to depend on this simple reassurance.
I listen to K-Love , a Christian Rock station on my car radio.
My little way of making daily worship time.
Amazing Grace, and God Will Take Care Of You, are two old- fashioned hymns
that always help me.
I believe God can speak to you through music!
I sing lullabies and Mother Goose rhymes to Emilie who's 17 months now, and she sings along and it's precious. Tommy thinks that the new Chipmunks movie's music is great, and hums the theme songs of Star Wars, Batman, and Spiderman! We have eclectic taste!
You can find all categories of music on You-tube.
Some grieving songs I like are:
Breathe-Amy Lee and David Hodges
A Better Place-Leah West
Heaven Got Another Angel
A Broken Life-Courtney Shane
www.beliefnet.com/Inspiration/Galleries/Songs-for-overcoming-depression recommends a list of songs that will help you when you're feeling down!
I Believe I can Fly- R. Kelly
Sitting On The Dock Of The Bay- Otis Redding
Great Day To Be Alive- Travis Tritt
I Can See Clearly Now- Johnny Nash
You've Got a Friend- James Taylor
Beautiful Day- U2
Keep a song in your heart! Sing like no one is listening, it'll make you feel better!